I am devastated.
I can’t sleep.
I can’t eat.
all I want is to have you here with me. I want to touch your soft ears. see your smile.
my heart is broken.
you are gone.
you were here and now you are not… and I can not grasp how this is possible after 13 and 1/2 years.
you have been my everything, for as long as I can remember. my rock when your sister died on us. my shadow around the house. my best friend. my companion on walks. the last one I saw before I fell asleep and the first one I saw when I opened my eyes.
you were always by my side, even when in so much pain you chose to come up the stairs just to be close to me rather then stay where it was cooler and more comfortable for you.
your love for me and us was greater then the pain you were going through.
always by my side.
you always had a smile on your face. I am so happy you chose us. I am so grateful for all the years you gave us. so grateful for how you looked after the kids; with your gentle stare and the love in your eyes.
I want to say be free … run … find your sister ( give her a hug for me) . Take those breaths that were so hard to take the last few days. stretch those legs that no longer supported you. but i greedily still wish you were here with me.
but I hope you are no longer in pain.
I think you were scared to leave me at least that is what I felt from you the last few days … and I was scared for you to leave as well… but know that you are in my heart; you will always be in it.
Thank you for choosing us as your family. Thank you for giving us 13 years of love. Thank you !!!
Rest in Peace
February 9th 2003 – July 6th 2016
my sweet, always smiling, gentle love
i am devastated … i know this will pass… I have loved and lost so many that i sadly know this pain too well… i am so sad she is gone… so sad and yet i hope she is no longer in pain … i was lucky to have her for 4,896 days and i feel privileged as only a few get to experience this kind of love.
~So I wish you all this kind of pain one day for it shall mean you loved!